Some people say, "it takes one to forget another". I beg to differ. Really, this ain't the way we should treat relationships. We should just treat relationships as like, changing shirts, or changing shoes or something. We should built relationship that lasts, not just some stupid fling that we get into just because we think that relationships are cool or something. And, it takes more than just mutual like to get into a relationship. Relationships must be built on strong foundation, a strong friendship or like, a mutual goal (working for God, to enlarge his ministry or to spread his word) or just a passion that both people have. They say opposites attract, but sometimes, somehow it just doesn't work that way.

Every relationship should start, with marriage as a goal, because if not, what's the point of getting into a relationship right? Before we make any silly choices, we should always think about others. If we get into a relationship, will it harm both of us? Will it end up in a heartbreak? I don't know. I guess we're just too immature to decide for ourselves.

I think I had enough of heart breaks, I don't want my relationships to feel like, it's not grounded on anything. I guess it's just the way people decide on things and then regret. OHWELLS. Life goes on, I'm a happy girl living as I am. (: HAHA.

xx,

I lie awake again, my bodies feeling paralysed
I can't remember when
I didn't live through this disguise
The words you said to me
They couldn't set me free

Im stuck here in this life i didn’t ask for
There must be something more,
Do we know what we're fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out

The storm is rolling in
The thunders loud it hurts my ears

Im paying for my sins
And its gunna rain for years and years

I fooled everyone and now what will i become?
I have to start this over
I have to start this over

There must be something more,
Do we know what we're fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out

I fooled everyone and now what will i become?
I have to start this over
I have to start this over

There must be something more,
Do we know what we're fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out
There must be something more
Breathe in breathe out
There must be something more

Something more - Secondhand serenade.
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There must be something more, more to life than just endless waiting. I think people should even use the word 'PROMISE'. Cos' promising is like, keeping peoples' hopes up, and when you can't fulfill that promise, it's just like, losing hope. People just use the word promise to make others believe in them, but whatever for, when you can't just don't.
Disappointment is the worse feeling to feel. I really hate being disappointed. But I'm sure I disappointed many others too, and I'm sorry for it. But then again, I wouldn't promise someone, something that I know will never happen, or something that I'm not sure if it will happen. I try not to anyway.

When I see your smile
tears roll down my face.
I can't replace.

And now that I'm strong I have figured out
how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,
and I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's ok...
It's ok...
It's ok...

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Cause you're my
you're my, my,
my true love,
my whole heart,
please don't throw that away.

Cause I'm here, for you
please don't walk away and
please tell me you'll stay, stay..

Use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know I'll be okay
though my skies are turning gray.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Your Guardian Angel - Red apparatus jumpsuit
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It just dawned unto me how hard it is to communicate with everyone around you, especially when you don't see them daily. I miss my secondary school friends, I miss those times in a single sex school. I miss my best friend. I miss everything I can possibly miss. It's not that I'm dreading the life I have now, other than the fact that it's, school, study study study, eat, study study, sleep. And it repeats, it's like a vicious cycle. If you don't study, you feel guilty, if you feel guilty, you get stressed. When you get stressed, you don't feel like studying. EPIC. HAHA. But guess what, I'm not that stressed after all. (:

I seriously miss those freedom that I used to have, and I actually miss swim trainings, no kidding. And, I miss going out with my clique. I really do. I mean, all the fun times that we had when we were in J1, no.. other things to stop us from going out as one big clique, instead of like, coupley coupley things. Sometimes, I feel super weird going out as a clique now and it's not even a clique, some people don't even go. It's like.. drifting apart. And it has definitely gotten more complicated when we came to J2. everyone's busy with their own lives, other than maybe me. Who's just, spending my time, studying. Sounds damn loserish luh, but OHWELLS. It's beneficial, I just have to keep telling myself that (: I'll pull through.

All the drama that happens in JC, it's just overwhelming sometimes. I wish I could turn back time, really, maybe if I walked through my life again, I'd choose my choices differently. Those foolish mistakes I've made, I promise myself, I'll never make them again. Maybe, I've just lost faith in certain things.. maybe, just maybe. And maybe, I'd never place any hope in it anymore.

Been ages since I wrote a post.

I think I'm turning bimbo-ish. (:
BIMBO SYNDROME:
- shriek really loud and high pitch
- klutz
- stupid (I AM)
- colours make me happy
- happy endings make me happy

Okay, maybe I'm just a little too optimistic. But then again happiness is a state of mind. It's a choice that people make, it's your own choice. I think people nowadays, keep thinking the worst of something that happens. Is this the way we should live our lives? I don't think so, at least I won't live my life that way. (:

I'm just a little too happy, a little too patient, a little too crazy at times, but I think when it comes to important decisions, I think I tend to make right and sober ones(okay, I make mistakes sometimes). Well, it's just.. that we're faced with so many situations, choices and problems everyday, it feels overwhelming. I don't think I'm the only one.

Sometimes, I hear about the rantings of different people, and wonder, maybe, just maybe, if they decided to treat these situations in a different manner, look at it in a different perspective, they would feel so much better, or if they tried to find a way to solve it. Communication is the most important thing I feel, for any relationship to work out. Be it, friendship, family, love, whatever, as long as it concerns the feelings of two people, it has to be mutual and the other person has to know what you're thinking about. Even though I'm able to say this, I admit, that I am unable to voice out my thoughts and worries even if I have to. Really, I find it hard to express myself, especially to people I care most about, to people that I really love or really super concerned about. Even if I'm upset or anything, I'm just gonna keep it in. You wouldn't expect me to confront you and tell you why I'm upset, or like, expect me to tell you what you did to make me upset. Plus, for me, I feel that, as long as people around me are happy, that's enough for me. So what if I feel a little used, or a little unhappy, or a little discontented, would that make the other person happier if I told him/her that I was upset? For me, I think I'd rather keep it in. That's how I feel, that's how I hide my feelings so well, that's how people think I'm happy all the time. (usually I am, even if I'm not, you wouldn't know)

Anyway, I'm supposed to get off the computer, upon request. I shouldn't even be posting this, but procrastination has got into me, AGAIN. This is probably one of the "unwise" choice that I made, to blog instead of study. AWESOME.

1 week to midyears, my darlings (:

xx,

I can't fight this feeling any longer
and yet I'm still afraid to let it flow
what started off as friendship has grown stronger
I only wish i had the strength to let it show

And even as I wander, I'm keeping you in sight
Your a candle in the window, on a cold dark winters night
and I'm getting closer then I ever thought I might

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I've started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
and throw away the oars
Baby I can't fight this feeling anymore

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
I've been running round in circles in my mind
And it always seems I'll following you girl
Coz you take me to the places that alone I cannot find

And even as I wander, I'm keeping you in sight
Your a candle in the window, on a cold dark winters night
and I'm getting closer then I ever thought I might

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I've started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
and throw away the oars forever

Coz I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I've started fighting for
Even if I had to crawl upon your floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby I can't fight this feeling anymore

Oooooooooh

Can't fight this feeling - Glee cast.
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Why, why on earth do I have to get some stupid injury for my shoulder, when it's probably the most important thing for me during nationals. Seriously, super disheartened by the timings today. But, I seriously wish I did better, I want to do better, but I just can't seem to. It's like, you wanna do something, but you can't. Yea, you get the point. :/ Life never goes the way I want it to be, therefore it SUCKS.

I need to do better, I need to stop being disheartened. I need to stop thinking I can't do it. I need a change of mentality. I need faith. I wish I knew what to do.

Hopefully, my shoulder heals soon, so I can train normally. :/ I really need to train. REALLY. I don't wanna let anything get in my way.

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I'll spread my wings, and learn how to fly. I'll do all it takes, till I touch the sky.

It's raining today, the blinds are shut.
It's always the same.
I tried all the games that they play,
but they made me insane.
Life on TV it's random,
it means nothing to me.
I'm writing down what I cannot see
wanna wake up in a dream.

Oh, oh.
They're telling me it's beautiful.
I believe them, but will I ever know
the world behind my wall.
Oh, oh.
The sun will shine like never before.
One day I will be ready to go,
see the world behind my wall.

Trains in the sky are travelling
trough fragments of time.
They're taking me to parts of my mind
that no one can find.
I'm ready to fall.
I'm ready to crawl on my kness to know it all.
I'm ready to heal.
I'm ready to feel.

Oh, oh.
They're telling me it's beautiful.
I believe them, but will I ever know
the world behind my wall.
Oh, oh.
The sun will shine like never before.
One day I will be ready to go
see the world behind my wall.
See the world behind my wall 3x

I'm ready to fall.
I'm ready to crawl on my kness to know it all.
I'm ready to heal.
I'm ready to feel.
Take me there!
Oh, oh.
Take me there!
Take me there!
Oh, oh.
They're telling me it's beautiful.
I believe them, but will I ever know
the world behind my wall.

World behind my wall - Tokio hotel.
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Will the world ever be beautiful? Is there ever a day whereby everyone gets their happy ever afters? Will there be a day whereby there's peace between people? Only people with self denial would say yes. But seriously, search deep down in your heart, is it really true? TV shows, movies, cartoons, fairytales, they all portray the same thing over and over again, girls meet good guys, then fight a little, then get back together, then they form one big happy family. No? People are MADE to believe, that these things are actually possible. But seriously, how many people actually meet into good guys and live happily ever after? Okay, maybe there's many, but, the divorce cases are rising. People are already starting to lose faith in marriage. Does this show that happily ever afters are getting harder to achieve? I don't know. This is just my own point of view. People like to feel warm and fuzzy, especially when they see happy couples together, even when it's not even reality, I am too, guilty of that. But in reality, who is ever able to achieve such a wonderful ending to life? We will never know.

GAHHH.
I HATE people, who think they are so freaking awesome and clever to post stuff on the internet, that indirectly hurts someone else. Okay, not really like, hurts, but like, to imply something. OKAY, WHATEVER MAN. If you wanna flirt, PLEASE, flirt with someone else. I do not want to see my friends getting hurt, tyvm. Seriously, stop it. It's kinda getting on my nerves. Even flirts have to flirt smartly, like choosing the RIGHT target? Seriously, what's your point? I don't care about love is blind, SO WHAT IF IT'S BLIND. Stop yourself before you LOVE. But then again, are you sure, that it's LOVE? or plain infatuation. If it's the latter, then please, just give up. There's just no point. Or like GP passage, people think love is like a.. dependence upon someone. But it's not. So, I seriously suggest you to STOP IT RIGHT NOW. kthxbye.

TRICIA. i am currently 17 ♥. Was from MGS Studying in ACJC. In 2SC9'10 :D . Borned on 241192. I do not like emo people. I play the piano & the flute. Currently in swimming :D. Add me on msn, the.hypocritical.smile@hotmail.com.
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- to get into ACJC
- with my friends.
- to be able to talk on de phone forever and ever. LOL.
- REPAINT my bedroom.
- get new dresses.

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