.Friday, May 14, 2010 ' 6:40 AM Y
tricia said,
Been ages since I wrote a post.
I think I'm turning bimbo-ish. (:
BIMBO SYNDROME:
- shriek really loud and high pitch
- klutz
- stupid (I AM)
- colours make me happy
- happy endings make me happy
Okay, maybe I'm just a little too optimistic. But then again happiness is a state of mind. It's a choice that people make, it's your own choice. I think people nowadays, keep thinking the worst of something that happens. Is this the way we should live our lives? I don't think so, at least I won't live my life that way. (:
I'm just a little too happy, a little too patient, a little too crazy at times, but I think when it comes to important decisions, I think I tend to make right and sober ones(okay, I make mistakes sometimes). Well, it's just.. that we're faced with so many situations, choices and problems everyday, it feels overwhelming. I don't think I'm the only one.
Sometimes, I hear about the rantings of different people, and wonder, maybe, just maybe, if they decided to treat these situations in a different manner, look at it in a different perspective, they would feel so much better, or if they tried to find a way to solve it. Communication is the most important thing I feel, for any relationship to work out. Be it, friendship, family, love, whatever, as long as it concerns the feelings of two people, it has to be mutual and the other person has to know what you're thinking about. Even though I'm able to say this, I admit, that I am unable to voice out my thoughts and worries even if I have to. Really, I find it hard to express myself, especially to people I care most about, to people that I really love or really super concerned about. Even if I'm upset or anything, I'm just gonna keep it in. You wouldn't expect me to confront you and tell you why I'm upset, or like, expect me to tell you what you did to make me upset. Plus, for me, I feel that, as long as people around me are happy, that's enough for me. So what if I feel a little used, or a little unhappy, or a little discontented, would that make the other person happier if I told him/her that I was upset? For me, I think I'd rather keep it in. That's how I feel, that's how I hide my feelings so well, that's how people think I'm happy all the time. (usually I am, even if I'm not, you wouldn't know)
Anyway, I'm supposed to get off the computer, upon request. I shouldn't even be posting this, but procrastination has got into me, AGAIN. This is probably one of the "unwise" choice that I made, to blog instead of study. AWESOME.
1 week to midyears, my darlings (:
xx,