.Saturday, January 23, 2010 ' 7:27 AM Y
tricia said,
ONCE AGAIN, I felt happiness for someone else other than myself.
I think I'm going crazy being happy for other people. But I can't help it right? Since there's not much to celebrate in my life, other than random points of life.. So, I've just got to be happy for other people. [:
I know you know who I'm talking about (if that person is here.) Lucky you. [: You've got so many good guys in your life, it's almost like.. fate. I don't know. [: At least I know you're in good hands now. [: Cherish it ya? These type of things, they don't really come frequently.
Although I feel super happy, there's always that.. feeling of being left alone. I really hate being left alone. o.o I don't know. I'm just weird. I'll feel super like... neglected. HAHA. Probably just me, cos' a lot of people don't feel the same as me. When all your friends get hooked up, then they just slowly drift further away from you, because they'd rather spend time nurturing their own relationship. Plus, they are often so.. caught up with the relationships with their own little problems and all, that you just instantly become a listening ear. And your own problems just disappear into the background. Yea... that's probably what being a good friend is about. Being there for your friend when they need you, giving them your advice, listening to their problems and all. Probably, one day, I'll just become a permanent listening ear, and like, my problems will all dissolve into the background. [:
Relationships, once broken, really can make someone feel like crap. Plus, they make you become instant strangers. I ask myself why? But, the reason just boils down to... retarded things that weren't even true. If the other person trusts and believes, your relationship will definitely be stronger, no? Then again, it takes two hands to clap. Thus, it's like, super complicated, maybe we'll never be able to understand. Maybe, once bitten twice shy. But I guess it's true. Once broken, it'll come back stronger and tougher than before. Building a shield to protect yourself, to stop yourself from hurting. It's supposed to be a good thing, but you won't trust that easily anymore. Yes, this means, finding someone trustworthy, someone that, promises, without breaking them. Seriously, cherish people who loves you, those who will do anything, just to make you smile.
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Training was horrible on friday, not cos' of the training set. But cos' I had to stop training halfway due to a retarded accident. Yup, had to ice my hand to stop it from swelling. Quite funny, but obviously, it was painful. Thanks for all the concern yes? [: And yes, my hand is fine, other than it still being swollen. [: DON'T WORRY. :D